In Sunday school this Sunday, part of the lesson referrenced a section of Psalm 42:8 (NIV), where it talks about God giving us songs in the night.
My comment on this section was that in the past couple of years, the last year especially, I have found an accelleration of waking up at night in the middle of the first or second verse of a song, already singing before I realized I was awake.
He giveth me songs in the night, may make people think of things like Paul and Silas in the Philipean jail, but it has a much deeper application and meaning than that. I also instantly thought of the hymn quoted at the top of this post.
The one thing I did not mention in Sunday School was that some these songs I find myself singing are Lamentations. Not that I myself am sad or sorrowful, or need to lament for myself, but that lamenting needs to be done, and that the songs I am given are a lament for someone else that I know, or do not know, but needs someone to weep with them.
It could even be that God wants someone to weep with or for Him.
I don’t think that my thoughts on this subject are heretical, but in my somewhat limited and ecclectic reading, I have not found anything that suggests such a thing. Although I have also found nothing that contradicts it, and many things that support it.
I will progress even further in this theological sojourn, to say that I don’t think we truly understand the full nature of God, or the great gamble that He played and the value He places on winning us through free will. These songs, emotions these lamentations, are all deeply intertwined with the deep value He places on us all. He has chosen great suffering for HIMSELF in this gamble, because he deems it worth the cost.
When we complain about our piddling little sufferings, hardships, and inconveniences, and ask “How can a just and loving God allow this to happen?” we do not realize how much suffering He has taken upon Himself. Not merely with Christ on the Cross, but through the entire great experiment. When people say “How can an all powerful God permit this?” they forget that He could not be an all-powerful God if He could not limit His power. That God can do anything, except not be himself. Who ever takes the time to weep with God for His pain. Not His weeping over our pain, but His weeping over His own pain.
And yet He suffers, and bears it all, and survives, knowing it is worth everything, for the love He holds for us, and that we will return to Him.
It is a great mystery, and one that I do not claim to fathom, but when the Scripture says to rejoice with those who rejoice, and weep with those who weep, I will do so, perhaps even having the honor of laughing with God Himself, and weeping with Him when He weeps.
When I receive a lament in the night, I do not know who it’s for. It may not be that great honor, but it might even be for God Himself.
So now I have revealed myself as either a great heretic, or a great mystic. Or maybe not great, but both of them.
So if you see any value in this perambulation, take some time time to consider the great suffering of God for us, and the ability to laugh or weep for others.